I’m really not someone who likes to brag or toot my own horn, but…since this is my blog…
May I 🙂 ?
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I have never been happier about any accomplishment in my life. I have never received straight A’s in college, much less received anything higher than a B in a science course. I took 3 science classes in one semester, each one more daunting and challenging than the next, and I got A’s.
Which leads me to the following topic…
In high school, I was dubbed the “dumb blonde”. I really wasn’t dumb, but I played into the cutesy role that was pushed upon me without hesitation, something I wish I could take back. Some expected me to get married immediately and not really do anything with my life except shop. Others thought that my singing ability might take me far. Others still, thought I might be on TV as a weather girl or a host.
So, what did I want?
Honestly, it didn’t seem to matter. It was never something I gave a lot of thought to, because it was all decided for me. I was going to be a singer, or I was going to be on TV, or I was going to be famous and THAT’s that. Talk about pressure! Those aren’t exactly tangible goals, am I right?
Finally, during my junior year of college, it hit me. I was on Facebook (of course), and saw at least 10 of my sorority sisters’ statuses that said, “I got into UCF Nursing School!” I thought to myself, “That is so awesome. I wish I could do that, but it’s way too hard. I’m not smart enough to pass all those science and math classes. Oh, well.”
Later, I mentioned my inner thoughts to Corey about my friends in nursing school, and he looked at me said, “Wait- what do you mean it’s too hard?” He told me that I could do anything I wanted, and he encouraged me to go after it. I did a lot of research about nursing. I went to hundreds of different websites, forums, watched videos, learning anything and everything I could about the profession and the different types of degrees available for nurses. Eventually, I created a plan of action. I decided that because I was already so far into my Communications degree, I would finish it, and use it as a way to get me into a one-year accelerated BSN program, which is available only to those who already hold a Bachelor’s in another field. I have been working towards this goal ever since, although I did encounter several set-backs.
I spent the day yesterday with my “big sister” in my sorority, Jessi. Over breakfast, we had a conversation that really opened my eyes to something. She was explaining how her whole life, she has been working towards this “dream” of being a news anchor on TV. In high school, she was class president and very involved with the TV production class. Everyone, including her parents, expected her to be a famous news anchor one day, and she thought that’s what she wanted. Turns out, after several jobs in the industry, she realized it’s never been what she wanted, but what everyone else wanted for her. She has now discovered that she truly wants to be a teacher, with a side business of freelance photography, which she is incredibly talented at.
After she said this, it dawned on me that I’m not the only one who has dealt with this kind of pressure- the pressure of other people’s expectations of what you should be.
I think it is common for our friends and family to see where are talents are and hope for the highest and best possible outcome for our lives. It is great to have that kind of support. But, when it gets to the point where YOU don’t know what you really want, it’s time to step back from what others want and focus on what you want for your own life. After all, you’re the one that has to live it, not them, right?
I can honestly say that I have never been happier in my entire life. I am so excited about my future profession, and I am so thankful for the people that pushed me to go after what I wanted. I proved to myself that I AM SMART– that I can accomplish anything I put my mind to, and that is a great feeling.
Have you felt the pressure of expectations before?